Things have been emotionally rough and raw lately.  Lot’s of things are in transition.  Relationships in flux.  And I’m still stuck in the hospital (33 consecutive days and 39 total days in the hospital by my count).  I’m trying to think of it as being 39 days closer to being released from the hospital.  It doesn’t work that well though.  But cheery flowers like these ones I got from my Great Aunt and Cousins brightened my room and my mood.

Tests a trickling in and no definitive diagnosis concerning the cause of my brain stem inflammation is yet emerging.

So I was especially pleasantly surprised to receive this cuddly visitor today.  It was just what the doctor ordered.

In the midst of confusion, I often turn to poetry to help capture my thoughts.  I wrote this one in about ten minutes, and I rather like it.  An emotional moment forever frozen like a bug trapped in amber.

A Place For Him

by Lauren Soffer

Life can be wild
Wonder is lost on this child
So she goes it alone
As she makes her way home

But the time she tripped
And she didn’t fall
A silent scream
Yet He heard the call
Still She goes it alone
As she makes her way home

Not ready
Not ready to let go
Not ready
For a hand to hold
Cause even crying all alone
At least she knows
It’s all she knows

Life can be wild
Wonder is lost on this child
This girl must
Grow up
Not a child anymore
Stand up
Reach out a hand
Lift up
Her heart till it holds
Always
A place for Him

Recent Comments:

• Genko commented on Shattered Trust Hi Lauren: Sorry this has been an additional stress for you. I think it must be almost impossible fo
• NovelPatient commented on Shattered Trust I think you misunderstood what I meant. I'm not opposed to alternative treatment all together (
• Suzanne commented on Shattered Trust Lauren, I hope you will give your dad a chance. I’m sure he feels helpless watching you go through s
• Alison commented on Shattered Trust Hey Lauren. I’ve still been thinking about you because it reminds me so much of all I’ve been throug
• Gillian commented on Shattered Trust Hi Lauren. As a mother & a daughter I can kind of see both sides. Watching your child suffer ill

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